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Finale.

"The only way to get what you really want, is to know what you really want. And the only way to know what you really want, is to know yourself. And the only way to know yourself, is to be yourself. And the only way to be yourself, is to listen to your heart." - Mike Dooley.

I stand by that. But my heart hurts.

(Creds to kollete's tumblr for the amazing quote.)

Tan lines & fun quests.

Last weekend, we all had a little getaway. For sure needed. It went real good. I slept the whole car ride(s). Unexpectedly made a stop to Reno on the way home & ended up chillin for the rest of the weekend. Not a lot of pictures, cause i was busy being relaxed. Out.

Artsy fartsy.

Making my half used paints useful, for the time being. Rough ass sketch haaha (totally not done). Ive tried paints on my shoes & i completed it, now for the real stuff. It'll be my first real project, & i'm pretty much testing the waters. I'm getting my creative on, again.

Concept inspired by the tattoo idea i reaally want.

"Its so cuute."

I'm falling in love with the VH1 show, 'Tough Love'. Made me get all sad for a second, though. Its actually a reality show that i could possibly learn from. Find me watching this every sunday. Haaha.

Stuck.

"Some women were made, but I was created."

The hip-hop showcase ft. redefine was pretty cool. I expected it to be a big event, but it was a nice family function. My sister's first prom, her junior prom, was yesterday. I did her hair & i was way too excited. I was way more excited than she was. I miss prom, actually. 

Fast and furious. Paul walker. He's still damn beautiful. I dont think i'll ever not have a crush on him. I'll meet him one day. I just dont now when, yet. Hahaah. That movie impressed me. On the other hand, observe and report was funny but a little disappointing. It was repetitive. I'm not tryna be a critic, so go and watch it. Maybe you'll like it more than i did.

Happy 1 year anniversary Franthony! "It's britney betchh."

John legend & his words. FML.

John Legend - Everybody Knows

Aw damn.

First for the month.

Schoolwork. Story of my life.

Ive been real busy with schoolwork lately. Not really stressed about anything. I'm only into my 2nd week of spring quarter, its only about to get more intense. Friends keeping me grounded, for now. 

As for life outside of school. "The college life" is catching up. Summer will definitely test my tolerance for it all. Speaking of tolerance, i will not tolerate stupid people & their stupid ways anymore. Not worth my time. Moving on. I'm beginning to think a lot about myself before other people, and its good. Daamn, i got my first parking ticket yesterday. $30 for not having my parking permit. Thats paid off. Um, havent really had time to work out cause of schoolwork. I'm getting super chubby, ew. Well, i might be over exaggerating that, but you get the point. Ive moved on from the cellphone to the vchat as a way of communicating. If you dont have a webcam, get one cause that's the only way i'll talk to anyone now a days hahaa. I guess that's it. I'm not super exciting. But you read. Night :)

IMY? :| Ego's aside, it still kills me.

Fine in moderation.

Sup?

Its been a couple days. I had a interesting/busy spring break. Its officially over tomorrow. Found out today that i passed winter quarter with a 3.70GPA haha. Waay better than i did fall quarter, damn. My cousins from washington came down the the bay to chill & attend our auntie's vow renewal ceremony. It was beautiful. We stayed home pretty much the whole weekend and watched our dad's get silly drunk. There were drunk dads and uncles everywhere. Hahaaha. Interesting right. I - let me rephrase that - we pulled an all nighter last night. Stayed up til 8AM and slept for 2 hours drove to jollibee in union city, said our "see ya later's", then went to work; and still, i'm awake. I am sleep deprived and i'm feeling it. I'm getting siiiick. I'll get back to my normal sleep pattern, soon.

On a different note, ive been given the best advice. Ive realized that i miss him. 'Nough said.

Money right.

Ive spent all weekend, working. Its good that i'm making $$$ again, but i'm exhausted. Adding onto the work, we had floorset & all i did was climb up and down ladders. Oh well, i spoiled myself a little today & bought myself a new book bag for next quarter :)

Anyways, the point of this blog was to give me a way to let you people know how i'm doing. So like, i havent been doing well. Sleeping hella late, watching the disney channel waay too much, & spending all my gas. Its bad. I swear i have insomnia or somethin. But whatever. 

I have a weak ass heart hahaha. Not literally, but that emo shit typa' stuff. WHATEVER right. Ive been watching disney channel cause t i absolutely hate that scary commercial about that haunting in Connecticut junk, and disney channel is the only channel that doesnt play that commercial. So there. Um, i'm on spring break but ive already been hella busy. So that sucks. Looking forward to get all dressed up on friday.

Break.

Spring break started last thursday. So i'm officially starting off spring break. Its been cool so far, i guess. Fortunately, i have hella plans already so i'm going to be busy all week due to family events, chill days, & work. OH! I found out from my mom that for summer,  we might be going to disney WORLD so i'm fuckin juiced. Hahaha. Spring quarter is starting in like a week, i'm not at all excited for that cause i have class 5-days a week instead of just MWF. But i'm taking 2 physical ed classes; aerobic kickboxing & boot-camp fitness. I need it.

Awkwardness has filled my week. It sucks cause i dont know what to think anymore. It just cant happen. I'm just trying to move on from the situation & handle my own. So i'm cool. There's this one boy that's keeping me on my feet right now, & i thank him. 

Missing in action.

So i haven't written in a long time. I'm trying to find a life. 

Ive been told that i need a hobby because i'm a "lazy ass", & i'm currently on the search for one. Past few weeks have been really inetresting, good and bad. Trying to work things out, & so far it's going good. We're getting back on track cause we're spending more time fixing our own attitudes. Ive been MIA from hanging out, & that always sucks. The friends i have now are great & i miss them. Ive blamed my bitchy attitude & certified that i am a hater towards 1 person. I'm freakin chunky. DAMN. Its not even a need anymore, i HAVE TO start working out again. Or i'll hate myself. Anyways, i have no pictures for this blog, BOO. But next time, i will. I just felt like talking about why i haven't been blogging.

Edit edit post.

My day consisted of sleeping in, waking up in the early afternoon, eating, sitting in front my macbook, listening to music, and editing/posting pictures. Aha. Not such a good saturday, compared to others. Anyways, i finally got to work out today. My dad fixed the treadmill so i hopped on it. I ran with my contour on. The contour is the muscle stimulation thing for your abs. Dude, i felt the burn. It was nice. I didn't do much else after. I posted up a new picture on myspace, edited some more, & now i'm blogging. See ya!

Dat new new.

I finally got a macbook & an iPod. Nothing too fancy, i just really needed to upgrade my 6 year old sony vaio. And i got my first iPod, nothing expensive, just right for me.

I'm feeling much better, getting over being sick. School is much easier cause i barely have classes anymore, lol. Gas is killing me! Every other day, i'm at the gas pump. Its ridiculous. I finally went shopping, for myself, a few days ago and bought some new jeans & shirts. OH! I got my 2nd cartilage piercing, on both ears. I'm gonna get a 3rd pretty soon. 

K, bye. thats it :) 

The week.

I haven't written in 10 days. So i decided to get my lazy ass up and type/edit something up.

Ive been sick. Way too sick for school, chillin, anything. I got the flu for like 3-4 days, and it sucked. I was in bed all day for those 3-something days. I lost my voice. I always like it when my voice is raspy, but would love it if it didnt come with being sick. I got taken care of pretty well though. Thank you best. I blame the weather for me being sick. Its been raining for a week now. But i cant complain.

Valentine's day. I had a great time. At first it started off "iffy" but i enjoyed myself. We went to the elephant bar in emeryville for dinner, and it was damn good. The waiter thought a certain someone was 21+ and offered him an alcoholic beverage, & him being him, he took it. AHA. I got buzzed from one sip, thats just cause i havent sipped in a while. No excuses i know, lol. Anyways, i had a good time. We cleared things up & now i'm living life the way i'm supposed too.

Thank you kyle (the waiter) for great ass service. Sorry the bus-boy got to your tip first, we shoulda' waited.

Wrap it up: friday the 13th on friday the 13th, i love mango-rasberry smoothies, vitamin water helps me when i'm sick, i still love the rain, & ive been driving a lot lately and need gas money. Aha. Time for pictures.

Lost.

I got lost yesterday. I got lost & was scared shitless. I tried meeting up with kev, frances, ant, jace, and chris in emeryville but it didnt turn out the way i wanted it too. I got home safe, but was shaken up. As soon as i got home, i cried aha. I cried cause while i was lost driving around through 580, my battery on my cell was low & my gas was running low too. Damn. I'm not drivng to places i havent driven too, anymore. Not alone at least. & Especially without my garmin.

Thats that.

On a birghter note. I ate pho for the first time in my life on wednesday with frances, krystina, and ant. It was bomb. I wanna go again, if its possible aha. Minnie's been driven all week, everywhere. She's at her 4000th mile. I havent gone shopping cause i'm broke. My job doesnt give me many hours. I'm still gettin by. Its been raining lately, but i personally dont mind cause i love the rain. I'm hella macbook deprived. Everyone and their moms has one, except for me.

Random ass blog, i know.

Been MIA.

its been a while since i last blogged. so here i go:

school : i started my freshman year of college in sepetmber. its pretty chill so far. my schedule is great right now, i have tons of time to myself and for my friends & family. i'm majoring in nursing, no surprise aha. i hated biology, but i love anatomy so far. met a couple new friends, but stayed with the old. nothing interesting about school so moving on.

friends : i havent really contacted or heard from a lot of people from high school. just a few that live close or who are up for chill time. i miss a few. but the ones i have now are really growing on me. we've made it known, FBC.

love : rough times, i dont really want to talk about it. i'm good.




so conclude things, nothings really happened since i last blogged aha. i'll be blogging more often hopefully.

Reality check.

To everyone that claims to be destined to stay with their significant other forever; get over the cliche. Clearly, middle school to sophomore year brain washed all of us to think we'll have our "high school sweetheart" forever. Aye, i'm not saying its not possible cause some people stay true to their word, but lets get real. People change and apathy happens.

I'm kinda over being emo about shit, especially relationships. I'm just going with whatever happens now. No more planning, & no more un-needed "i love you's" or "i miss you's". You call me, i won't call you. You ask me if i want to see you. If we are together 5- to whatever years from now, then i was being a big ass hypocrite for typing this blog,


but i'll take my chances.


Apathy n. [ap-uh-thee]
1. absence or supression of passion, emotion, or excitement.
2. lack of concern for things of importance.

Thanks to you, my vocabulary is becoming bigger. Thank you.


Damn, that felt good :)

Ultimatum.

I was sitting in english class, listening to my teacher talk about the essay test we're going to take on monday. I asked what cynical meant, because it was in one of the questions on the practice test questions. She answers me, giving me the definition in her words,

"Cynical is a doubt in something. For example, being cynical about love. You have to experience something bad to become cynical about a certain thing."

I thought about what she said all day. So once i got home, i looked it up. And the definition says,

"Distrusting the motives of others."

Ive become cynical about relationships. I'm not mad. I wont get what i deserve and i'm accepting it. My forgiveness was taken advantage of way too many times. Denial is the last thing i'm in. I am insecure, i'm jealous, and i am attached. I like bein taken care of. I try my best. Ive perfected the skill of tryng, over & over again. And thats all i can really give you. Consideration, appreciation, admiration. I thought you'd prove me wrong the first time, but i got my hopes up. I'm vulnerable, but i'm not stupid. I know you try, i know you care, and i know you love me. Its time for me to strengthen my heart. Give you your space, and let you breathe finally. Days, months, years ive counted. But now i'm lookin at quality, not quantity. So i'm ready. Youre my bestfriend. I'm not mad at you. I never have been. All i really wanted was for you to treat me better, "even just a little bit".

This isnt a divorce, its just a seperation. Til you finally understand and appreciate me.

HAPPY+1

Kev & i didnt see eachother today, sadly. Stuff came up. But we'll make up for it on valentine's day! Hopefuly, hahaha. Happy 27th kev! Anyways, didnt do anything today, slept practically the whole day, but whatever. Warriors won, 117-120. Oh did i mention, my dad met MATT fcking BARNES today & shook his hand? Fuck. That should've been me!

No school.

Weekend started off great. Got out early friday, chilled with kev on saturday, and it was a pretty day to go out driving today. Played wii + guitar hero practically the whole weekend. Beat kev in every WiiSport game we played. Bowling, baseball, etc. Hahaha.

No school tomorrow due to President's Day, hell yeah.
+ Tomorrow is our 2 years + 3 months = 27 months hoes :)

Expect new "duo" picture(s) tomorrow on my myspace!